a day with sadness and upsets...

i'm broken...

lots of things happened today ,even though it's just in a several hours of time .still remember when is the first time i met my girlfriend ,ant then we're together ,half a year later ,things weren't the same and doesn't go so well as what i've been imagined earlier and i'm not happy with it..untill today ,the relationship's chain's like been burning and melting .i tried to give every best to her ,but it's never enough..maybe i don't really understand bout what's really going on .but ,i wanted to know what is the truth that lies beneath this broken hearted relationship ,i asked , "do you still love me or are you still putting any heart and effort in this relationship ? " she answered me "not really ,i'm sorry..i don't really have the mood for love or maybe i'm not into it at all..." i do understand what does that really means all this while ,it's just that i don't want to accept what has been happened or what's actually happening to this relationship ,and i don't wanna lose her .simplify it ,i'm just being naive and don't wanna axxept the fact..i don't know what should i do..i love her too much ,and i'm confusing myself with this .